Hey Just Hear Me Out K

This is an email Mr. Panda sent me on Valentines day. I feel bad for him..but I've moved on with my life and he needs to let go and do the same.

It's harder said than done..but I've already gone through that and it's not impossible. He makes me feel guilty for his pain....
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Sent: Saturday, February 14, 2009 4:19 PM
Subject: Hey Just Hear Me Out K Please

Hey all I wanna say is when I first saw u in High School I was in love w/ u n I knew u where da one for me, n ur sti da one I love even though were not together I still love u. In fact I now a certain person that once told me that no one can't interfear w/ our love n all those people can keep talkin' n say what they want cuz no one can get in our way for what we feel for one another. And I know that I fckd' up a few times in our relationship n that cause a trust issue n u just couldn't trust me for awhile n yes I do regreat da fact that I fckd' up but listen here Flower, I'm better than ur e-x gonna better tha n ur next. And when u broke it off w/ me I tried so hard 2 play cool like it don't face me, so one nite out in TQ where I was in Iraq we had a kik bak n I was talkin to Alicia n then out nowhere we kissd n when we did I felt so fckn' bad cuz even though u n me were not together I still felt like we were n I was so ashame of myself Flower n that was da closes thang I ever did w/ a chik out there just once. And I now that ur not my girlfriend n I don't care da fact that u got a "man", but if u have any feelings for me I know that he can't love u like I can n I would never hurt u n that's da truth cuz being an asshole is not me I hate being that n I know I was when we broke up n wanna apologize for that n I mean it from da bottom of my corazon Flower sorry. There's no woman that can take my love away from u because I still c us holding hands, goin out 2 da movies n having dinner walking down da beach diggin our toes 2 da sand, it's da simple thangs that I miss from u Flower. And da million question that I've askd' myself over n over again if u really love so much when I left 2 Iraq then y did u left me?? Cuz oout there I realized that u were da true one for me n this just drive me crazy, cuz I can't c u w/ no one else but me, me being ur beloved husband, a father n mainly growin' old together. If thangs would of happend like we planned u would of been here n u wouldn't worry on what I do cuz I'll be coming home 2 u every nite doin u rite ur da type of woman that deserves good thangs u should just let me love u give all things u need good love n security. It's just like da song from Babyface "No one knows but me", that's how I've been living Flower n I kik myself for not expressing my true feelings for u I was just scarred that u might of left me, but I was wrong. U thought I didn't care for our relationship n u were wrong in that perspective cuz I did care n I still care Flower I just want u back Flower. Also i lied 2 u I don't drink every nite maybe like 2 a mnth but when I do is mostly by myself n I drink til' I cry n pass out cuz da memories hurt me real bad. Due 2 da fact that I fckn' love u so much n also due 2 da fact that when ever u say u'll call me bak n u don't that makes me cry Flower just cuz I'm a guy doesn't mean I don't have any feelings, well I do just like u Flower. Also I gave up on staying on shape so I'm letting my gut grow bak again cuz da main eason I got bak in shape was for u, n now there's no reason y I should be in shape n I always keep thinking in the love that we had n here I am being straight honest n saying nothing but the truth. Maybe u should stay @ ur house n stay in ur room n think about everything n I'm being serious just remember I loved u for a very long time n I still do Flower think of me n where I'm going w/ this Flower well also listen to this other song from Los Temerrarios "Si quiero volver". Well I'm sorry for taking ur time n tnx for taking ur time for reading tis n also Happy Valentine's Day my love muahz bye:(